if there's a soulmate for everyone

STOP!

2008-10-17T09:48:00.002+08:00

oh man. can anyone tell me what are the ways and how to stop me from thinking too much? or even imagining things? the only time when i didnt tink too much or imagining thing is when i play netball, maybe will tink for a while only. other than that, my mind will start to wonder, think and imagine things.

i reali want to stop thinking and stuffs coz i dun want to let it affect anything. i reali dun want. but sometimes i just cant help but to tink bout it. i'm trying very hard. i reali am. i want to get immune in this. hopefully time will be by my side and help me to overcome this.

and of course i need you as well.

Staying strong and holding on

2008-10-16T12:36:00.006+08:00

Having to lose someone who is very important and very close in your life is definitely the worse and painful thing to happen to anyone. It may not hurt you physically but it will definitely hurt you emotionally.

I don’t want this to happen to me. Never will I let it to happen to me. Thus, I’m staying strong and holding on to the words very tightly. I don’t ever want to let it go. I’m holding on to it tightly and do all I can to maintain it. I won’t give up and let it go.

I promise you.

"I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out

I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while

There are days every now and again I pretend I'm ok"

“I hope that things are still the same
hoping they will never change
cause what we had can't be replaced
don't let our memories fade away
keep me in your heart for always”

“I promise you I won't forget the times we shared, the tears we cried

You'll always be the sun in my sky”

“If there's one thing in this world that I know is true
It's the love that I feel when I'm thinking of you
No ocean, no mountain can keep us apart
Cause no one can take away someone who lives in your heart
All out hopes and our dreams are alive
I'll carry you with me through distance and time
Nothing in this world can keep us apart
No one can take away someone who lives in your heart”

*I will do anything to maintain it*

Stupid asshole freak

2008-10-16T00:02:00.003+08:00

"I AM SO INSIGNIFICANT."

I am so hurt that "YOU" pushed me aside just to show care and concern to someone who is important.

what am I to you then?

sign off,

xoxo

soulmate for you.

2008-09-23T22:48:00.002+08:00

this is nur soleha.for you?anyone?bidding starts NOW!

she is currently 20 year old.i know its abit hard for you guys to accept.but just do with it la okay.she can help you TIII BOOOOM if you like.cause she can TIII BOOOM anytime,anywhere.she is currently looking for males whom are single right now,must be as handsome as tao han(which i think everyone can) then can be qualified.she bruise easily,so dont bite her okay.her character is more to the hippy kind..listen to songs like..tonight....i celebrate my love..for you that kind.

so please HURRY while stock last,leave down your name and contact no. if you wanna know more about her.her manager will contact you shortly.

xoxo,

gossip girl

"burst-ing" time!

2008-09-08T14:28:00.003+08:00

ok. i know my blog had been dead for a very long time. you know why? coz i very lazy to blog. wahahaha! and oso dun have anything to blog about. heh. but last fri, after src training, we had a "burst-ing" time! haa! they used my hp to take their photos using the burst effects. below are their photos. wahaha! enjoy!

commonwealth-ians trying to act hippie. wahaha!
now trying to act rockers. aiyo! haa!
purposely dun wan to take their faces. heh.

taken by a clementeen. wahaha. :P
tut tut trying to act bimbo and gay. haa!

FYP is over!

2008-07-31T12:37:00.003+08:00

i must shout out loud that FYP is finally over! i had presentation ytd in front of 4 assessors. luckily it was only 4 of them and not in front of the whole lecture room as one of my fren's team got chosen to present in front of the whole lecture room. oh man! i was very nervous and scared before the stepping into the room to present. but overall, i must say it was quite well done except for questions regarding statistics which my team cant reali answer as it was not done in the proper way. still, it was good!

below are some pics taken ytd during FYP!

this is my FYP team!

(me, J, dude, naz & hid)

me and naz nothing to do take pics. heh.

wat is J doing? i tink she's too stress. hahaha!

now is naz's turn to release stress. haa!

naz's pose.

J's pose

hid's pose

lastly, my pose! wahaha!

alright. though FYP1 is done. there's still FYP 2!! argh! nvm. i shall enjoy the free time i have before FYP 2 starts. weee!

hilarious shit!

2008-07-28T14:59:00.002+08:00

ok. i'm in class now and here i am blogging. oh man. i feel so damn sleepy and tired. i need my beauty sleep! it's areadi week 14 of school. 2 more weeks and it's holidays! i cant wait for that to come. feel like skipping skool in the coming 2 weeks. haa! but i wont! wahahaha. coz later someone wil scold me. heh. :P

anyway, my FYP presentation is on this WED!! it's like 2 more days can! i am freaking scared and nervous! and i haven decide wat to wear for that coz we have to dress formal for the presentation. and today, my FYP team had already had 2 meetings just now and later wil have another one to finalize on our poster. argh! endure haha! 2 more days! wish me luck for my presentation on wed man!

anyway, my purpose of writing this entry to share something dumb which happened to me. my FYP team was discussion about our posters in the morning just now. the venue was at the 2nd level of my class block. i was bored so i went over to the railings to see if anyone was downstairs. i didnt know that there was this wall on top of the railings. so, i stretched out my head to see. and guess wat happened! i knocked my forehead onto the wall! it was quite hard and the impact was painful can!

i turned ard to see if anyone saw that. and luckily only fling saw it! wahaha! and she laughed at me can! so bad! hmmm. not only her la. my dear tut tut oso laughed at me when i told her about this. she so bad la. laughed continously at me somemore. and! keep on hitting my forehead on the pretext of asking me if it's painful anot. so bad!

feeling happy!

2008-07-22T23:08:00.002+08:00

my family sent my bro to NUH after he came back home from a soccer match wif a "diabetes" lookalike right ankle on sunday. we waited like 4 hours plus at NUH can! after all the xray and checking done, the doctor said that he had an ankle fracture. so he's now in the cast. wahaha! i sound so evil. heh. with this, he took the opportunity to treat me like a slave to get him stuff like his pillow, food, drink, etc. argh! anyway, hope that he will recover soon. :D

ok. this is a picture of one of my fav sweets!! it's very sour as you can see from the name. so what will happen if you eat this? pls scroll below..

hmmm. this is how ur expression will look when the sweet is in ur mouth. isn't she cute? haa. so after finish eating that, wat will happen? pls scroll below..

alright. this is wat you wil become. you wil look exactly like the one at the cover page of the sweet. isn't that exciting when you can get different expressions after eating this sweet?? wahaha. for more info, pls ask my dear tut tut. haa. :P

haa. as you can see below, this crazy woman is being locked up in our skool netball cage when the President was visiting our school today. the reason of her being locked up? very simple. coz she's CRAZY!! wahaha. she kept on screaming inside there calling for help but no one helped her out. wahaha. but in the end, i dunno who let her out. haa!

FYP!

2008-07-13T00:45:00.002+08:00

ok. i have not been updating my blog. you know why? coz i have been busy with my final year project (fyp)!!! the deadline of the report submission is only a week away!! argh! i have been rushing to do it. hopefully, what i have done is correct and i dun have to do lots of editting when i meet up with team members tmr at the lib. and i need my source of motivation for me to keep going on my fyp! *hint hint* heh. :P

and my fyp presentation is on 30th july! and i found out that we are going to present in front of a lot of pple in a lecture room! that means there will be like 200 people in there? oh man! i dunno if i can do it anot coz i have stage fright!! argh!

hmmm. i dunno wat else to blog except that i tink tut tut was very sweeeeeet to me just now!! weee! :D thanks tut tut!

"pregnant me" :P

2008-06-29T19:35:00.004+08:00

alright. ytd was the final match of our NL competition. it was against zenith. we had to win the match for us to be assured of the 2nd place. but unfortunately, we lost. the sun was tremendously hot ytd coz our match was at 3.30pm. i know we cant blame the sun for our loss. i was not playing well for ytd's match. i had a terrible stomach ache during the match and felt like shitting once during the game. not only that, i felt like puking as well. in short, i wasn't well for the match ytd. whatever it is, i'm proud of my RP team! well done gals! let's continue to fight and train hard for our POL-ITE! :D

hmmm. after that watched SRC match wif schools under 19. they lost by 4. wasted. but i tink they played well ytd. i realised something. without fail, meishi (tut tut) wil fall in every match. and the way she fell is all the same for every match. haha! i cant help but laugh at her. wahahaha! oops. sorry tut tut. heh. :P

den went for dinner wif crazy woman, tut tut and shi lin at newton. oh man! eating dinner wif shi lin can be a torture man! haha. it's not a bad thing la. but she's the kind who wont waste food one. if she sees even a grain of rice left on our plate, she would ask us to eat it. haa! coz of that, me and tut tut had to finished up all the food. that crazy woman so useless! she dun wan to help finish the food! haa!

me and tut tut had to eat a mountain of rice for the dinner ytd. seriously, it was the first time i ate that amount of rice. haa! so both me and tut tut had a hard time finishing up our food esp wif shi lin ard. wahahaha! :P

below are the pictures of how me and tut tut looked like after eating a mountain of rice for dinner. we seriously looked like a pregnant women right? hahaha!

what hurts the most

2008-06-27T02:00:00.002+08:00

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house

That don't bother me

I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out

I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while

Even though going on with you gone still upsets me

There are days every now and again I pretend I'm ok

But that's not what gets me

What hurts the most

Was being so close

And having so much to say

And watching you walk away

And never knowingWhat could have been

And not seeing that loving you

Is what I was tryin' to do

It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go

But I'm doin' It

It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone

Still Harder

Getting up, getting dressed, livin' with this regret

But I know if I could do it over

I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart

That I left unspoken

What hurts the most

Is being so close

And having so much to say

And watching you walk away

And never knowing

What could have been

And not seeing that loving you

Is what I was trying to do

What hurts the most

Is being so close

And having so much to say

And watching you walk away

And never knowing

What could have been

And not seeing that loving you

Is what I was trying to do

Not seeing that loving you

That's what I was trying to do

Ooohhh....

YOU

2008-06-27T00:35:00.002+08:00

i got nothing to blog right now.

coz my mind is currently blank and there's only tears coming down my cheeks. and still awaiting for the answer for the 3 questions.

lastly, nothing else matter but YOU.

it's alive again! :D

2008-06-22T20:19:00.002+08:00

alright. my son has been complaining that i didnt update my blog and she said that my blog had died because of this. so, coz of her, i will update my blog now. firstly, i tried to upload photos but i blogger just dun allow me to upload the pics! so i cant. i shall try again next time.

hmmm. i cant rmb any interesting things which happened to me the past few days so i shall not talk bout it. i shall just talk about the SRC Netball Carnival which was held ytd at SRC. err. i doubt i did a good job as an overall in charge for the carnival coz there were quite a number of last min things to be done like the first aiders, umpires and the fixtures. partly it was my fault for not looking into it earlier on. anyway, whatever it is, i have learned something from it and hopefully i wont let this repeat it again next year, that's provided boss let me be the in charge of the carnival again. heh. :P

and ytd was my 6th month anniversary wif BF. haa. she gave me chocs for the anniversary. heh. but i didnt give her anything. oops! paiseh. sorry BF. next anniversary i shall give you something else. hehe. okies? and i found out that BF has a sweetheart. she didnt tell me but i found out myself! haa. aren't i smart?? wahahaha! no wonder she had been meeting someone before she went home. *jealous-ed*

lastly, tut tut! dun forget the promise we made ytd hor. must rmb that we shall be happy always!! alright?? and and i'm still waiting for something.. wahaha!! :D and and oso the physically to increase more!! haha! :D

bangkok here i come! :D

2008-06-11T14:06:00.002+08:00

alright pple! i'll be away to bangkok for 5 days. i'll only be back on monday! :D

meanwhile, must miss me okies??

take care guys!

to RP1, ALL THE BEST for ur game on sat! my spirit wil be supporting you all from bangkok! :D bring me victory, alright??

i love you guys!!

BYE BYE!!

(i'll be leaving in 8 hours time)

fun time!

2008-06-08T16:52:00.006+08:00

ok. since i got time now, i shall blog and upload some pics. it's going to be a long post, mind you. so bear wif it. heh. :)

sun (8/6/08)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY MUMMY!!

WEEE!!

I LOVE YOU MUMMY! :)

me and my siblings are going to treat my mummy to a birthday dinner treat later on!! woohoo!! aren't we sweet? yes, we are. oops! :)

sat (7/6/08)

ok i had match wif extremes ytd. my team lost. we had 10 players only for that match coz hui min injured her ankle and naz couldn't make it coz her uncle passed away. so, i had to play GD for 3 quarters and oso C for 1 quarter. i swear i was panting when i played C in the 3rd quarter. and i feel weird playing GD too. and moreover, this shane, she ah kept on smiling on court and i dunno why oso. haha! i tink the team played rather well but there are some areas which still can be improved. it's alright team! it's only one game lost! we still got 3 more games! heads up ya!! and sorry i wont be able to play this sat against LAB TEN coz i'll be away to bangkok! but! dun worry, my spirit wil be supporting you all! go go! :)

and and tut tut surprised me when she came down to watch the match la! coz she said she wont be able to make it. she bluff-ed me lor!! haha! anyway, thanks tut tut for coming down! appreciates! love ya! :)

after game, a grp of us (me, tut tut, sweetheart, baby, jasmine, darling, xueli and hui min) went for dinner at sakura at city hall. jasmine and hui min went off. the rest of us stayed to acc darling coz she meeting her fren at PS at 10.45pm. wanted to bowl at SRC but found out that only members can bowl. haa! oops! sorry guys.

so sweetheart suggested that we go clarke quay to take the river tour. oops! i tink kexian gg to scold me and jealous if she knows i went for the river tour without her. wahahaha! but too bad! heh. :P and oh yes! i didnt know bungee jumping was at clarke quay la! haa! i want to take that too! *hint hint* to tut tut! haa. :P and and i tink i hurt-ed darling. sorry la darling. dun sad-ed and hurt-ed anymore okies? smiles. :D

after that, we went separate ways. i shall upload the pics on the river tour as soon as baby pass me the pics. :)

tues (3/6/08)

tut tut pre-bdae celebration

so wat did we do on that day? first we met at bugis junction. den wany suggested that we go take the DHL balloon! kexian was so excited about it la! haa! but when we were up there, she was like wobbly coz we were up in the air of 150m off the ground leh! i oso become like kexian coz i'm scared of height!! oops! :P

after that, went to eat at a turkish cafe. wany brainwashed us to buy the set value meal. haa! it was worth it but before the main dish came, we were areadi full wif all the appetizers la! so we were all struggling to finish our food! haa! and there was bdae cake at the end! so each of us just ate a slide and tut tut brought home the rest! heh. :P

Happy Birthday Tut Tut

2008-06-04T01:11:00.002+08:00

it's late now. but just wanna say,

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY

TUT TUT!!

i love you loads! :)

random stuffs

2008-05-30T23:36:00.004+08:00

actually i dunno wat to blog.. let me see if there's anything special happened these past few days.. errr...

oh yes! i got my first A for my UT for sport administration module! ok. i'm not trying to show off here or something hor. but i was just shocked and surprised too! coz right, i reali didnt study for that UT la! serious! :P

i had soccer match on wed! oh man! it was reali tiring! and the team we played with was like twice our size la! and yeah, we lost. i dun tink i played well on that day. sigh. hope i can improve on it. and as usual, i got blue blacks on my leg after that soccer match. and tut tut dun wan to look at my bruise. so sad-ed! :(

den today (friday), as usual had training. quite a number of people turned out which is good! :) nothing usual happened during training. den we went for dinner. oh ya! i feel that the uncle was rude la asking us to leave faster since we had areadi eat finish coz they are closing. he can at least say it in a better manner right. aiyer!

after that, went to mrt to go home. and i asked bf to say "i love you" to me ten times before we separate ways. she said i cheated her feelings coz she said it like more than 50 times. coz right. the previous times she said it, she didnt say it properly and didnt look at me when she said it! haha! but the last one was good. i like! haa! so from now on, you must say it to me ten times and look at me oso hor. and you said you wil do it willingly right? heh. love ya! :)

no idea!

2008-05-27T22:15:00.001+08:00

CONFUSED

BLUR

SUFFERING

STRESS

i tink my hyperventilation is coming back.

i dont want history to repeat itself. :(

home alone

2008-05-24T21:17:00.002+08:00

i was alone at home the whole day.. and currently i'm alone.. it's a super duper boring saturday.. coz basically i got nothing to do.. no interesting shows to watch on tv oso.. so i just watched a drama online the whole day.. i tink the time spent waiting for it to download finish was more than the time i watched the drama.. but at least it kept me for the day.. if not, i tink i'll be bored to death!

oh ya! mt o level is on monday.. oh man! how i missed my o level time badly! i missed studying for exams.. burning midnight oil to revise and so on.. come to tink of it, it was 3 years ago when i took my o levels!! haa! so long! so anyway, for those taking mt o level on monday, good luck and all the best! :)

and "BF", jia you!! dun lose ur motivation! keep on going!! it'll be over soon before you know it.. study hard!! and take care too!

i'm always here supporting you! loves. :)

mood low low low

2008-05-23T23:48:00.003+08:00

first thing in the morning received news that UT grade for sports management was out.. so i checked it out.. and i did damn badly for it.. but i kinda expected it but not to the extent of that bad.. anyways, i got E for my first sports management UT! how suck can i be, man!! gonna study real hard for the next UTs! but i dun like the module coz of the faci la! suck! :(

ok training in the evening.. wasn't supposed to have training but coz our first NL match starting on mon thus, tony wanted to have training.. i tink it was quite slack leh.. coz i dun get to get on court much.. i reali dunno wat tony wants.. as in, he said i'm versatile but he didnt reali put me in much to train.. i reali dunno wat's my position or standing in the team is.. sometimes, it confused me.. and i need assurance for that.

another thing, i sometimes wonder how a coach think? what are the factors that they consider before deciding their main 12? coz all the coaches i had and have, some of their decisions made, i felt that it was not logical at all.. as in the reasons they gave behind it.. and they dun practice what they preach.. they say one thing and do another thing.. i get fed up when they behave like that!

alright.. i know i have no rights to say about coaches since i'm not a coach myself.. but i will sometimes wonder how they tink.. and my mood level currently is low low low!!

anyway, darling bought me a drink and personally came to my class to pass it to me.. so sweet of her right? haa! thanks hor! and you betta take care of ur ankle.. keep ice-ing it! dun disappoint me! recover fast! loves.

GLITZ Night!

2008-05-22T19:30:00.004+08:00

i just going to blog bout ytd coz nothing special happen today.. so, woohoo! ytd was RP glitz night where they give awards to sports people.. i didnt win any big award like sportswoman of the year.. haa! but i did won the meritorious award silver together win naz. and nab won the certificate of merit! so congrats to us!! weee! after that, was dinner and photo time as shown below! :)

me taking the award (thanks to tut tut for taking it)

this is wat i won. :)

me wif some of the RP netballers!! :)

me wif my netball advisor, FAZ and coach, TONY

me wif my tut tut!! weee!! :)

me wif the soccer gals!! :)

and and ytd was my 5th month anniversary wif "BF". i know it's kinda late to post this up but it's the thought that counts right?? heh. :) so happy 5th month anniversary "BF"! loves. :) and and i'm waiting for you to decide on a date next week for our dinner. heh. :P

loves.

2008-05-19T20:25:00.002+08:00

weee! this is what tut tut drew for me ytd! :)

deadline: 16 more days! :P

sorry

2008-05-18T20:15:00.003+08:00

Oh I had alot to say

Was thinking on my time away

I missed you and things weren't the same

'Cause everything inside it never comes out right

And when I see you cry it makes me wanna die.

I'm sorry I'm bad, I'm sorry you're blue

I'm sorry about all the things I said to you

And I know I can't take it back

I love how you kiss, I love all your sounds

And baby the way you make my world go 'round

And I just wanted to say I'm sorry.

This time I think I'm to blame

It's harder to get through the days

We get older and blame turns to shame

'Cause everything inside it never comes out right

And when I see you cry it makes me wanna die.

I'm sorry I'm bad, I'm sorry you're blue

I'm sorry about all the things I said to you

And I know I can't take it back

I love how you kiss, I love all your sounds

And baby the way you make my world go 'round

And I just wanted to say I'm sorry.

Every single day I think about how we came all this way

The sleepless nights and the tears you cried

It's never too late to make it right

Oh yeah sorry

I'm sorry I'm bad, I'm sorry you're blue

I'm sorry about all the things I said to you

And I know I can't take it back

I love how you kiss, I love all your sounds

And baby the way you make my world go 'round

And I just wanted to say I'm sorry.

I'm sorry baby.

I'm sorry baby, Yeah.

I'm sorry.

tut tut, this is for you. some of the words are not appropriate for what had happened in the past 2 days. but the large fonts words are the ones which what i want you to read and know. those are also what i wanted to say regarding what happened in the past 2 days.

pictures time! woohoo! :)

2008-05-15T21:48:00.008+08:00

as for today, tut tut made 3 stalks of roses (which wat she called it. haa!) with the ferraro rocher (is that how you spelt it?) paper for me! Isn't she sweet?? haa! thanks tut tut! :P

on our way to ITE simei in the bus ytd for a friendly match in with avalanche, nee soon east and ITE simei.. nothing to do so take pics!! :)

tut tut and crazy woman studying for UT on the way back.. they are so kiasu can! haha! and they needed yin wen (below) to teach them.. haa!

this is wat me, tut tut and lynn did on tues when training was cancelled.. met at jurong east to eat KFC and den played arcade! :)

tut tut trying to act girly wif her "flower" on her hair. haa! :P

it's creepy

2008-05-13T23:11:00.002+08:00

i somehow feel it's creepy to have witnessed 2 accidents in skool which required ambulance to come all the way.. and these 2 accidents happened today and ytd..

as for ytd, i didnt reali witnessed wat happened but i saw the outcome of the accident.. it was actually a netball match between nigel's class and an outside team.. it was after my netball training when someone came out of the aircon court to the netball court and asked if anyone knew first aid as someone was injured.. at first, i tot it was sprained ankle or something.. but it was a dislocated shoulder.. gosh! i can see the shoulder bone being moved somewhere else.. and the gal was freaking screaming in pain.. had to wait for half an hour for the ambulance to come.. and i tink i'm very bad.. coz when the paramedic came, i shifted my attention to one of them as he's quite cute and good looking.. haha! anyway, i hope the gal is alright now.. and nigel, careful not to hurt anymore gals la!! :P

as for today, i sort of witnessed the accident.. not full accident though but 3/4 of it.. i just came back from lunch when i saw my fren squatting wif her head tilting to the wall beside her.. i asked my fren who's wif her what's she's doing.. so she checked it out and said, "i tink she's fainted".. when she said that, i looked at her and yes, she reali fainted coz her body was weak and like wobbly wobbly like that.. my guy fren asked us to make her lie down.. den i went to ask for help from one of the faci.. this caused a big commotion as everyone was standing there looking at the accident.. soon, the ambulance arrived.. hopefully, she's alright now.. :)

and you know wat.. the whole day in class i was watching video of soccer players fainting on the field den died.. and i'm not a sadist hor! and coincidentally, my fren fainted but thankfully, it's nothing serious.. i tell you, i was feeling quite panicked and scared when i saw her fainted.. reali! oh man! hopefully there's no more ambulance tmr onwards..

Happy Mother's Day!!

2008-05-11T23:05:00.002+08:00

firstly, wanna wish all mothers HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!

and to my mummy, i love you loads! thanks for all the effort and things you have done to raise us, esp me, up all these years! hmmm.. i wonder when will it be my turn to have the right to celebrate mother's day.. haha!! :P

ok.. i dunno wat to blog about areadi.. hmmm.. oh ya! i must write something.. tut tut was super duper extra SWEET to me ytd la!! haha! like i said, a packet of tissue was not enough for me.. haa! thanks! :)

and so crazy woman, when wil you start to be sweet?? heh. :P

tiring day

2008-05-10T15:49:00.002+08:00

skool was okay ytd.. my team dun have to do any presentation coz my team just need to ask questions to the teams presenting.. thanks to najib! haa! easy job right? heh. :P

after skool met up wif tut tut, crazy woman and bf who was late hor to head down to SRC for a friendly match with a company.. and yes! i finally got to see bf after a month of not seeing her! haha! and she like dun have any excitement when she finally get to see me leh.. haa! anyway, before meeting up wif bf, me, tut tut and crazy woman went to bossini.. you know why??!! coz.. that crazy woman forgot to bring her panty!! haha! so she wanted us to follow her to buy panty.. she ah.. forever got embarassing things which she did not fail to do.. haa! after that, sat at burger king so that both tut tut and crazy woman can do their RJ and for me to supposedly eat which i didnt..

look at them so engrossed in doing their RJ.. haha!

as usual, went for dinner after the friendly.. my dear amah didnt come for friendly ytd.. so sad.. and bf was so bad to say that the reason amah didnt come was because she dun want to see me lor.. amah, see how bad ur fling is!! haa! and tut tut finally got to eat her J.Co (Jacob?) donut.. haha! so went home wif tut tut, crazy woman, jenny and joelyn.. me, tut tut and crazy woman saw an interesting scene when we alighted at lakeside..

look at these 2 "ali babas"(that's wat crazy woman called them).. they are standing beyond the yellow lines.. dunno wat they trying to do.. haa! :P

and and sorry my dear tut tut bout wat happened when we went home ytd.. i tink i was too tired and sleepy that's why.. sorry.. and no worries.. you can still continue saying and doing the usual things you said and did to me.. coz i know that's the way we communicate and it's the way you showered ur love to me.. right?!! heh.. :P

normal day!

2008-05-07T23:13:00.002+08:00

had fyp meeting in the afternoon.. i guess my team's fyp is doing well.. hopefully can start doing the report by next week coz i wanna get it over and done with FAST! dun wan to tink bout it anymore!!

so had training cum match today with nee soon east.. well.. i dun tink i played well. as a WA today.. i seriously dunno wat happened coz i reali dunno where to run.. tony said i didnt reali create space for myself.. haiz.. hopefully i'll be able to work on this soon!! anyway, i tink i'm very proud of myself today! coz i tink i ran about 2.4km today! yipee! i wil continue to run before every training coz i very much want to increase on my stamina! i badly want my sec 2 stamina back!! go haha go! :)

ok. so went home with the crazy woman today coz my dear tut tut didnt go for training today.. sob sob.. :( surprisingly, she's not as crazy as what she is.. the only bad thing that she did today was asking me to shut up lor and keep on singing.. other than, i tink she's a bit normal today! haa! and yes! an embarrassing thing happened to her today.. she dunno how to wear her bibs properly la! she wore it like "criss-cross" and the whole court was laughing at her! haha! she forever has something embarrassing happening to her one! haa!

PS: my dear tut tut, pls get well alright! love ya! :)

crazy day!

2008-05-07T00:07:00.003+08:00

oh man! i'm feeling very sleepy now.. anyway, the first ut today sucks la! i dun even know wat i'm writing la! and i dun even understand some of the questions.. i just hope i dun a D for it can areadi.. i'm hoping for a C.. i hope they will moderate it.. haa!

anyway, had SRC training after that with tut tut and kexian.. as usual kexian was crazy.. haa! and and the most hilarious and embarassing thing happened today was that kexian drooled when she was sleeping in the train!! and she suddenly woke me up and asked me for tissue! hahaha! and another thing, her panty got stuck again today.. she ah.. oh ya! she oso forgot to bring her panty to the cubicle when she was bathing..how forgetful can she be??!! but i would say that kexian was reali nice today when we were having our dinner at club.. she served me and tut tut food without us asking for it la! that's so nice of her right?? haa! but i guess it's only for today.. haha! :P

one more thing! my dear amah was very clumsy ytd! she told me that she broke the back of her heels while she was walking down the stairs when she was going to work la!! she ah.. amah, you are a disgrace to our amah team leh.. haha! but nvm, i still love you.. heh. :P

den going home time, dunno wat happened to tut tut la.. she suddenly became possessed with different qualities.. she has become pervert, vain, violence, act cute, etc.. all at timing of 30 mins.. for more info, pls read kexian's blog.. haha! coz kexian wil do an analysis on why tut tut suddenly become possessed with the different qualities.. and she can even bite kexian hand la.. heh.

and tut tut.. you hurt-ed me today oso.. you bang my head into the mrt door.. not once but 4 times!! you so mean to me.. :(

fun Monday!

2008-05-06T09:57:00.003+08:00

argh! wanted to blog ytd but there's something wrong with my internet at home... so stupid! haha! anyway, it was a fun monday ytd!!

firstly, lesson was awesome!! coz i had lab for lesson.. but it's not coz of the lab that made it fun, it's because of the "arcade" atmosphere in the lab!! weee!! coz there's actually this machine(dunno what it's called actually) where we can play!! besides playing with the machine, we oso played softball in the lab la!! it was so fun! i loike... heh. sadly, ytd was the last for the faci who taught me the lesson.. she's one of my best faci whom i had ever had in RP.. kinda sad.. hopefully, the replacement faci will be as good as her!! and i wish her all the best! and and, here are the pics for the "arcade"!

had training ytd.. it was fine actually except that i had difficulty running coz of my hamstring.. tink i nv stretch properly.. and as usual, kexian was crazy! in the middle of running the tracks and sprinting, she could tell tut tut that her panties stuck and asked her to cover up for her coz she wanted to adjust it.. how crazy can she be la! and she kept on singing! but but.. i have to say, she was rather nice ytd.. haa!!

and tut tut, you hurt-ed me la ytd! i counted altogether 8 things that you did and said ytd which hurt-ed me.. haha!! dun say i calculative hor.. coz you are petty too!! haa! :P but but the most hurt-ed-ness thing you said to me was when you said, "excuse me" to me just coz of the crazy kexian lor.. :(

touch rugby!

2008-05-04T15:03:00.004+08:00

had inter-section touch rugby at SRC ytd.. initially, there were 5 of us to take part in it.. but in the end, left only me, huili and boss playing.. haha! but luckily, there were ard 5 touch rugby gals and boy to join us.. if not, we'll be handicapped man! haa! it was very fun! shld have more of this happening in SRC.. hehe.. i heard next up on the list will be inter-section soccer!! haha! if that reali happens, i'll be the first one to join! heh!

anyway, good news for the netball section!! we won 2nd for the inter-section touch rugby!! we beat those from cricket, tennis, S&R and oso the management team! we oso won $100 which will be put into the netball fund! woohoo!! aren't we awesome!! haha! but thanks to those pple who helped to play for us too.. heh! and and our dear huili won the female MVP! congrats!

this is the trophy!! (i got to bring it home! :P)

It says here RUNNER UP!!!

finally training!

2008-05-02T23:19:00.002+08:00

phew! finally there's training today after much discussion with amah and jenny ytd.. haha! ok training was fine though there were only 10 of us attending it.. did some drills and played 5 on 5 throughout.. after that, dinner as usual but this time was at food court instead of burger king.. hehe.. and coincidentally, saw jolene there wif a guy whom she claimed to be just a fren.. haha! i shall investigate bout that.. heh.. :P

after that went home with jenny, amah, tut tut and crazy kexian.. we laughed the whole journey home la coz of jenny's jokes! (esp the tip!!) haha! and gosh.. there were so many pple in the train till we cant feel the aircon la.. so hot can!!

and and amah.. if you want kexian to be in the amah's team, pls cure her craziness first or have medicine for her craziness hor.. if not, i'll backout.. haha!! :P

and here are some pics for the day!

kexian sandal + my sandal = tut tut's newly bought sandal

tut tut's and kexian's parachute bags! look at their expression man! haa!

this is why i called meishi, tut tut!! hehe..

PS: sorry tut tut for the ball that hit you just now.. sorry.. and i still love you! heh. :P

pictures!

2008-05-01T22:57:00.005+08:00

this is drawn by tut tut. she said the pic represents me. haha!

this is drawn by bf when i told her that her choc is not filled wif love. haa!!

this is a fake choc drawn by bf coz i told her i want chocs. heh!

possible reasons :P

2008-05-01T16:04:00.005+08:00

i'm going to re-write my post coz bf said she dun understand when she read it.. i dunno which part she dun understand.. but nvm.. i shall re-write everything in a simpler language.. hopefully she understands.. haha!

alright.. wat happen was, i told her that i dun like her ytd.. and she asked me why.. so here i am writing this post to tell her the possible reasons as to why i told her that i didnt like her ytd.. haha!

possible reasons:

1) you have been bullying me (always right? haa!)

2) i've been waiting for my request (it's like been a month areadi i guess or more? heh)

3) there's not enough actions from you (is it coz the thoughts that counts? haha!)

4) you nv date me out (i know you busy woman, that's why. haa!)

ok bf, i dunno if this makes ur understanding better anot.. hopefully it does! hehe.. dun worry la, i only dun like you ytd.. haha!

PS: anyway, i was just playing wif you when i said i dun like you la.. it's not real.. heh! but the above possible reasons may reali lead me to dun like you.. haha! just kididng!

you know i love you, right?? (feeling ps?) WAHAHAHA! :p

kexian's insanity!

2008-05-01T00:46:00.003+08:00

after training went to eat at cavana at cwp wif tut tut and kexian.. oh god! i tink RJ had made both of them became insane.. first it was tut tut the other time.. den now it was kexian.. this time her insanity was that she hurt-ed both tut tut and me by her harsh and rude words.. haha!! but.. she made my day la!! i didnt know that kexian's behaviour could be crazy la.. from wat i had known her in sec school, she would not behave like that.. haha! but hell yeah! she's so damn funny la!! haa..

here are some pics!!

this is the only way she's quiet

hmmm.. and i didnt get to go for my check up coz i didnt bring my referral letter along wif me to NUH just now!! how dumb can i be.. so my next appointment will be on the 28th may..

stalker!

2008-04-29T15:16:00.005+08:00

oh god! i tink there's stalker man! i dunno if he's stalking me anot.. but i've seen him in a lot of places in wherever i go.. reali! the way he looked at me is so damn _______. i dunno how to describe on how he looked at me la... and i saw him again ytd! this time i was wif tut tut dustbin(meishi).. even she cant stand the way he looked at us la.. oh man.. i tink if i see him again right, it's time i get a bodyguard.. *hint hint* haa!

PS: i'm such a disappointment.. sigh!

sorry tut tut dustbin.. :(

and i'm going for my "blue blacks" checkup at NUH tmr.. wonder what tests will i be asked to do in order for me to get the answer..

sick sick me..

2008-04-23T23:52:00.002+08:00

oh man.. i tink i'm very pathetic.. pathetic not as in i'm a loner where i got no frens or wat... but pathetic as in my whole body is sick.. i'm having flu and cough.. dunno if there's fever anot.. but sometimes i do feel cold when it's not supposed to be..

and to add on to that, i tink i'm sick physically.. where i cant go right or left.. and that is because i have blue blacks on both my knees.. and my right knee swollen (a bit i guess).. and there's blue blacks around my right elbow.. and there's abrasion on my left hip.. so with all these, straight is the only right direction for me.. coz if i go left or right, there will definitely be something hurting me..

so tell me.. i'm pathetic right?? or is there any other adjective which can describe my situation at the moment?? haa..

distorted body!

2008-04-21T23:46:00.002+08:00

this is esp for my bf!

happy 4th month anniversary!! :P

haa.. see i oso so nice to you.. my opening speech is for you. haha! and i shall use pink for it. heh. i'm very sure you dun mind right?? unlike me.. hehe. and luckily you didnt use the font pink in ur blog.. hmmm.. why isnt there any pink font? or it's there but i just cant see it?? haa. hmm.. wat's ur fav colour ar?? haha. nvm. i just put maroon colour (if i dun rmb wrongly, you like maroon clour right? haa.)

oh man! i tink my body is kinda distorted leh.. coz this morning my class had to play capt ball as that was our prob. statement of the day.. and guess wat?!! i fell down! but i'm not that clumsy so as to fall down myself.. this guy fren of mine wanted to intercept the ball from me so he jumped.. and so when he didnt get the ball, he pushed me away.. he didnt use much force but i tink coz of his size, the impact was huge and so i skidded on the netball court.. and the most embarassing part was that, i cried in front of my class for the 1st time!! oh man! i feel so paiseh.. and i tink i fell down unglamly leh.. i fell facing the ground can..

and so wat's the outcome of the fall?? i hurt my left hips coz there's abrasions and it's a bit swollen.. i had a small blister on my left elbow.. blue blacks on my right elbow.. blue blacks on both my knees.. and lastly, swollen right knee.. all coz of that guy classmate of mine!! and the annoying thing was that he could still laugh at me after he pushed me down la!! that idiotic guy!!

but but.. despite the fall, bf made my day!! weee!! :P and with that, all the pain from the fall had been reduced!! haha!! thanks! and even if i manage to find the real one, you wont be replaced!! wahahaha!! :P

busy busy

2008-04-20T21:33:00.004+08:00

oh man.. it has been a crazy week for me!! it has been a sports week for me this week.. mon, tues, thurs and sat got netball.. sun got soccer.. so i only had like 2 days off for me.. even that was not enough for me.. i need sleep!! why isn't there any holidays this month?? i demand more holidays from the gov. pls!

hmmm.. had SLA fiesta last wed to fri which is for the year ones to look ard for different CCAs in RP and to sign up for try outs.. as for netball, there were ard 82 pple sign up for it.. haa! i tink that's a lot man! but hopefully they will stay on and not only come for few trainings and decide not to come areadi.. haa..

to end off, here are some photos i took during the SLA fiesta!

our netball booth (by paula, yin wen & iffa)
me & fling in the lift

fling trying to act rock?? haa!
i reali dunno wat's she doing.. haha!
me trying to ack rock.. haha!
i'm tired of life! haha!

a random pic.. haa

meishi's insanity!

2008-04-12T13:58:00.005+08:00

yay!! weekend is here!! finally can wake up late after the first week of skool.. first week of skool had been.. err.. stressful?? classes have become more competitive, expectaions are higher too and projects are coming up too.. so haha, let's buck up!! go go go!!

anyway, ytd had src training.. before that, met kexian, dustbin(meishi) and BF.. kexian had this sudden craving for fish & chips at swensens.. dunno why oso.. haa! and me, dustbin and BF shared a plate of chilli fish pasta (i tink).. haha! and after that we rushed off for training.. in the end, we were late.. haha! but training started at 7.30pm.. heh.. :) after training went dinner at long john den went home wif joelyn, kexian and dustbin.. poor BF, she gotta go home on her own since boss was not there wif her.. nvm.. next time i accompany you home okies?? so that you wont miss ur stop!! haha!

and i dunno wat happen to dustbin ytd.. she was so hyper active.. i didnt know that that hyper active pple can become insane as well.. haha! coz basically, she's just not herself ytd.. talk so laugh in the mrt, became gay wif joelyn in the mrt and trying to make a fool ouu of herself by imitating someone.. haa! and the reason she gave for her insanity was because she had been thinking bout her RJ.. haha!

i shall upload some of the pics taken ytd..
and a video showing meishi's insanity!! hehe.

trying to see if she look better wif specs or without specs.. haa!

taken by dustbin! (that's why it's blurred) haha!

taken by dustbin too! haa!

finally we include her in the pic.. haha!!

one of the things she did during her insanity period.. hah!

dustbin trying to imitate this pic.. haha!

joelyn! (commonwealth.. haa!)

kexian! (soon to be RP netballer?? haa..)

a video of meishi's insanity!

careless, careless!!

2008-04-08T23:25:00.002+08:00

oh man! i dunno wat's happening over me these past few days.. i nearly lost 2 of my most impt stuffs.. they are my hp and my wallet!!

as for my phone, i was trying out a shorts at a giordano outlet at suntec last sat and i put my phone on the cushion in the cubicle.. so after trying, i just left like that and i didnt realise it until i paid for the shorts and checked my pocket for my hp.. asked my mum if she took but she didnt.. and i sort of quarrelled wif my mum while finding for my phone in the cubicle.. when i couldn't find it, i was areadi feel like crying.. luckily i asked the salesperson there about my hp.. and phew! they are honest enough to return it back to me.. i was relieved.. and apologies to my mum for quarrelling wif her when it was my fault.. sorry!

as for my wallet, i was sitting under my class block when i put my wallet beside me.. i was busy eating and chatting wif J, fling, sweetheart and siti.. and after a while we decided to go back class.. i didnt realise my wallet was missing till i got into my class.. so, i quickly run back to the sitting place and checked for my wallet.. along the way, i was praying that it's still there.. so i reached there and saw these 3 guys opened up my wallet and i quickly said that it was mine.. i dun tink they wanna take my wallet, instead they were trying to check out whose wallet it's belong to.. luckily, those 3 guys were honest enough.. thanks!

haiz.. dunno why i've been so careless these few days.. hopefully, i'll be EXTRA EXTRA careful not to lose anymore things..

when you look me in the eye

2008-03-30T00:15:00.002+08:00

If the heart is always searching,

Can you ever find a home?

I've been looking for that someone,

I can't make it on my own.

Dreams can't take the place of loving you,

There's gotta be a million reasons why it's true.

When you look me in the eyes,

And tell me that you love me.

Everything's alright,

When you're right here by my side.

When you look me in the eyes,

I catch a glimpse of heaven.

I find my paradise,

When you look me in the eyes.

How long will I be waiting,

To be with you again?

Gonna tell you that I love you,

In the best way that I can.

I can't take a day without you here,

You're the light that makes my darkness disappear

When you look me in the eyes,

And tell me that you love me.

Everything's alright,

When you're right here by my side.

When you look me in the eyes,

I catch a glimpse of heaven.

I find my paradise,

When you look me in the eyes.

Every day, I start to realize,I can reach my tomorrow,

I can hold my head high,

And it's all because you're by my side.

When you look me in the eyes,

And tell me that you love me.

Everything's alright,

When you're right here by my side.

When you look me in the eyes,

I catch a glimpse of heaven.

I find my paradise,

When you look me in the eyes.

And tell me that you love me.

Everything's alright,

When you're right here by my side.

When you look me in the eyes,

I catch a glimpse of heaven.

I find my paradise,

When you look me in the eyes.

oh man!! i'm so super addicted to this song man!! it's always in my head la! haa.. if onli someone can sing this song to me.. i'll be like awwwww..... :P

getting annoyed!

2008-03-25T22:54:00.002+08:00

i know there are rules to be followed in a workplace.. but sometimes the rules can get us into trouble as well.. so if getting us into trouble, why not break the rules?? either way, it'll get us into trouble.. it's like wtf lor!

come on la! when you are helping someone, it's not advisable for you to stop halfway and leave everything there in a mess right?! i know you have our interests at heart, but i just felt that it's not a professional thing to do that esp when you are in a workplace..

and you are telling us that we wont get paid overtime if we were to stay back and complete the stuffs? but firstly, we know the overtime is from 7pm onwards.. but today you told us it starts from 6pm onwards.. so which one is the correct one? at least, let us complete the stuffs first.. if not, it'll reflect badly on us and even on you!

this is getting out of hand! one person says one thing, the another says another thing.. which is correct oso dunno! so which one the part-timers have to follow oso dunno.. and when there's trouble, we are to blame! it's like wtfffffff!!!

i tink i'm getting sick.. coz i can feel that my body's temperature is rising and i've been having slight flu for the past 2 days.. :(

itchy itchy!

2008-03-23T22:02:00.005+08:00

i tink i got some rashes on my back.. i dunno if it's rashes anot.. but i tell you, it's very the itchy leh.. i cant help but kept on scratching on it.. and my mama kept nagging me not to scratch on it anymore.. coz i tink it had become quite big and quite swollen.. and i tink i must have gotten it when i went to west coast park wif jolene and froggie on good friday.. haa! speaking of which, i have a photo here which we took!

and and my auntie came my hse ytd wif her son and oso wif her neighbour's son.. oh man! her neighbour's son is so damn cute can!!! his name is andy! he's only 1 year plus.. but i must say he's quite smart leh.. by the way he replied to our answers and oso by his actions.. anyway, here are some of his pictures! oh andy!! :)

oh yes! man utd vs liverpool now! and man utd is leading 1-0! shucks!! and liverpool is one man down.. come on, liverpool!

fun day!

2008-03-22T00:21:00.002+08:00

weee!! went out wif jolene and froggie ytd! met up wif jo first for our late lunch at city hall as i gotta renew my membership card at src.. sorry to make you starve for almost 3 hours, jo!! haa.. but it's a good thing oso you know.. you know why? coz you can lose weight a bit since you are now err.. 5_ kg? haha!

after that, met up wif that froggie! our initial plan was to play badminton at clementi sports complex but unfortunately, there's no court for us to book! so we walked ard clementi area to find a court to play.. that froggie even suggested that we act as ah lians and sat at a bball court and shout "next team" to the pple who were playing there.. haha! trust her to come out wif that idea!

so in the end, that froggie suggested that we go to west coast park.. and so we did.. it was a wonderful idea, i must say coz i had lots of fun there! we sat near the beach while eating our packed mac dinner.. haa! me and jo began to turn emo when we were sitting near the beach.. i tink it was more of me being emo coz that "jerk" suddenly came to my mind.. sigh.. and that froggie said that she would nv bring both of us there again as that place brought sad memories to both of us.. haa!!

but on the happy thought, we had a very meaningful chit chat session.. we poured everything out with one another.. stuffs like netball, bgr, skool all came out.. oh man! i seriously miss my netball time in my sec skool years! and we took photos too! weee! let's have more of this session, jolene and froggie!! :)

ps: happy 3rd month, "bf"!! heh. :P

moodless

2008-03-17T23:12:00.002+08:00

went to play badminton near gek poh shopping centre there after work.. oh man! it has been zillion years since i last played badminton can.. it was so tiring la.. and i tink my badminton skills have become rusty areadi.. guess i need to play badminton more often now to get back all the badminton skills which i have.. heh! but i'm not that pro though.. hehe...:P

ok.. i dunno why i've become moodless now.. so i dun tink i'm going to write anything else for today..

i'm such a failure

2008-03-16T01:18:00.003+08:00

sigh.. i tink i'm such a failure.. it's been 4 years and you are still on my mind.. i even go to the extend in asking for ur no so that i can msg you or even have a chat wif you.. just wat was i thinking about when i did that??

i shld have forgotten all about you after wat you have done to me back in 4 years ago.. but sadly, i just cant seem to forget you.. i guess you had left a very big impact in my life..

very big indeed!

am i going to take another 4 more years to get you out of my life completely and move on wif my life??

"Gabriel"!!

2008-03-14T23:46:00.003+08:00

went out wif bf to buy our presents.. so we went to vivocity's new urban male to get my sandals and flip flops.. sigh, dun have the colour that i like but i chose another colour which i tink it's not that bad.. haha!! ask bf bout her opinions which colours are nicer, she only said anything.. she ah.. always anything or dunno one, like me la.. haha!!

but luckily got this guy called, gabriel, he came over to serve us.. so wat i did was.. i began to ask him bout his opinions on which colours are nice, whether it's suited to wear wif jeans anot, etc.. and den after bf chose and tried the shirt which she wanted, he actually folded the shirt back nicely.. bf asked him that he dun have to fold nice den he replied saying that he had to if not his boss would scold him.. den i told him his boss wont scold him coz his services was areadi very good.. heh.. and bf said i'm flirting wif him and asked me if i wanted his no.. haha!! he's quite cute la and good looking ah.. but no thanks.. haha!! :P

i guess the time spent in the new urban male is quite funny and fun!! haha.. i tink only bf know wat i meant!! heh.. :) and thanks for the chocs, bf!! loves. :)

after that, headed down to bugis to eat dinner/supper... i lost my way at bugis.. can you believe it?!! haha.. in the end, called my fren and asked her for directions and finally reached the destination.. stayed until 10 plus before heading home.. weee!!

and and tmr is the results of my blood tests.. hopefully everything is alright..

check up

2008-03-12T14:53:00.000+08:00

went to see a doc today to actually find out the reason of me getting blue black very easily on my body esp on my left side.. wa.. the waiting time to see the doc is almost one and the half hours.. maybe it's coz i went to the polyclinic.. that's why..

when i see the doc, she asked me to take a blood test.. so i did.. it was my first time taking a blood test!! haha! at first, i tot there would be an injection, coz i'm afraid of injection, but no it wasn't really an injection but there was a needle poking in my vein.. the funny part of the blood test was that, the nurse cannot find my vein as my vein is very small and she told herself that she betta dun miss the vein.. if not.. haha.. after that, i was told to come back an hour later to see the results..

one hour later, i came back.. and i was asked to take another blood test coz of whatever reason it was.. i heard that they gg to send my blood test to the lab or to NUH.. so i went back to the doc and she explained to me about the various reasons of why people usually get bue black easily.. but dunno wat's my reason.. she said i had to wait to sat for the results and maybe from there, i wil know why i always get blue black easily..

hopefully, it's nothing serious.

*crossing my fingers*

i'm still sad.. :(

2008-03-05T23:04:00.000+08:00

ok.. this short post today is specially for "bf"..

although you had said the 3 words, dunno if you mean it anot coz it seems like you are being forced to say it and i tink that's the case, i'm still SAD lor.. so hopefully, you know wat to do to make my sadness go away and to make me happy too!!

i'll be waiting..

heh. :P

PS: and i'm still waiting for you to date me out.. hehe.. :)

it's soccer time!

2008-03-02T20:16:00.000+08:00

sweetheart haven pass me my makeover photos.. so i cant upload it here yet.. but hopefully, it'll be soon for her to pass it to me.. weee!! :)

firstly, Happy 16th Birthday to bf!! finally, you are areadi 16 years old, hur?? haha!! you are still so young la.. i'm jealous.. haa! still so long to reach the number 2 unlike someone who had areadi reached that number.. heh.. anyways, hope you had a wonderful bdae wif ur loved ones!! and when wil be the day where both of us wil go out and act as if that day is ur bdae and my bdae?? i'll be waiting for it.. haha!!

and and Happy 20th Birthday to mahes as well!! haha!! you have reached the digit 2 like someone!! heh.. may all ur wishes come true, man!! ha... hopefully, we are meeting up this wed, ya??

anyway, i had my first soccer match ytd though it's just a friendly match.. my interest had always been soccer, second is netball.. but i love both sports equally!! haa! but i have never play in a real 90 mins soccer match before.. ytd was my first.. the match was between RP soccer gals vs australian under-17 gals.. oh! you'll be surprised to see that the aussie gals are so tall, tough, aggressive and fast!

i played for the full 90 minutes!! i swear it was much more tiring than playing for 4 quarters of 15 minutes of netball!! i had a hard time catching up my attacker.. i need to build up on my fitness!! esp my stamina!! urgh!

hmmm.. so did we win?? err.. we lost, of course! haha!! wanna know the score?? ask me secretly.. heh. :P

Makeover Time!

2008-02-24T14:16:00.000+08:00

i had one of the most memorable birthday today though it was celebrated one week after my actual birthday!! thanks to J the muscular, sweetheart, baby, fling and sweetheart's sister!! sadly, gf cant be there to join us.. but it's ok.. :)

so wat happen was.. they bought me a dress and a belt as birthday presents and asked me to wear them.. i tot that was enough.. they even brought a make up artist who was sweetheart's sister to make up for me.. their intention was to have me make over into a more lady like girl since i had areadi reached the digit 2!! so i had to sit for almost 2 hours to have the make up done.. and for that, i had butt cramp!! haa.. mind you, all these was done in a public toilet!! jurong east swimming complex toilet!! haha!! so LC right.. haa!! after 2 hours, the make over was done!! i feel so weird la!! haa!

after that, headed down to orchard to have our dinner at swensens at ard 9.45pm.. haha! we had a late dinner! so dinner was great as we chatted along the way.. chatted bout lots of stuffs.. one of the topics was asking me to learn to change into a more lady like girl and learn the basic make up skills.. haha! i guess it'll be a difficult task for to achieve that.. heh.. but, i will try to learn them slowly.. hehe..

i shall upload the pics of my makeover when i got it from sweetheart.. heh. :)

whatever it is, thank you so much J the muscular, sweetheart, baby, fling and sweetheart's sister!! love ya lots!! muackz!!

Happy Valentine's Day!!

2008-02-14T13:17:00.000+08:00

firstly, Happy Valentine's Day to everyone!! hmmm.. wat is actually that day for?? i know it's a special day for every couple.. but everyday can oso be valentine's day for them.. and flowers are so damn expensive on this occasion la!! haa.. i dun tink i'm getting any flowers for this valentine's day.. haha!! but well.. i believe those singles out there, like me, can oso enjoy this day to the fullest as well.. coz i'll be spending it with sweetheart and consultnant today!!yipee!! i hope it'll be an enjoyable day for us.. who knows something may happen during our meeting later.. muahahaha!!

alright... so it's like only 3 more days to the 17th of feb.. and i still haven fulfil the bet which i had made with vivien and gf.. oh man.. i dun tink i'll be able to fulfil that bet within these 3 days.. so sad la.. haiz.. nvm.. i shall try harder to find one before 17th of feb 2009!! hopefully!! or shld i just wait for it?? hmmm...

ok.. so i had my pre bdae celebration bdae with bf on last sunday(10/2/08).. we went to watch ah long pte ltd.. it was funny la esp mark lee.. haha!! i enjoyed watching it! and guess wat.. when we bought the tickets at the counter, the lady there actually gave both of us couple seats la.. i was like laughing when i heard that coz i find it funny la .. haha!!

so.. will there be more celebration to come?? hehehe.. i tink i'm thick-skin by asking that.. haha!! but nvm.. once a while thick-skin, it's ok one... heh.. so AMAH, BODYGUARD, DAUGHTERS, BABY, FLING, GF, SWEETHEART, CONSULTANT, AMELIA wat are you all waiting for?? wahahaha!!

and oh yes.. i'll be having another pre bdae celebration with my pretty dustbin tmr.. weee!! i cant wait for it!! :)

@#@!#

2008-02-04T21:39:00.000+08:00

hmmm.. i actually dunno wat to write in this post.. any interesting thing happened?? let me see.. err.. went down to watch west zone wif pretty dustbin and bf.. err. wait! shld i call her jinger?? like so weird la call her by name coz i nv call her by her name before.. haha!! aiyah.. nvm la.. i shall stick to calling her bf.. haha!! she oso dun mind.. heh..

anyway, congrats to my ex school, ctss, B div for getting into the 2nd round of the competition.. 2nd round wil definitely be harder for them coz they got MGS, Nan Hua and Regent.. hopefully, they wil go into top 4.. and i wil try my best to come and support them since it's holidays for me now?? hehe.. but still got work lor.. sian! anyways, all the best to them!!

went home after that.. and bf reali send me home la! she so stubborn can!! she send me to 7th floor coz i stay at that level.. heh.. dunno why she is so high today and wants to take a pic.. and so we did.. i tink i look weird in it coz i'm not prepared for it?? haha!! :P

and i need to find a replacement for the first aid course next week coz i dun tink i can make it!! oh man!! if not, i gotta pay the full cost of it.. gosh!!

so what now?

2008-02-01T10:08:00.000+08:00

ok.. so he put me to play shooter on wednesday's training.. what does that mean?? i swear it has been a long time since he put me to play as a GA or GS and he suddenly put me to play in those 2 positions.. so i was kinda shocked and happy as well coz shooter has always been my favourite position.. oh well.. i tried not to think about this issue anymore and stress myself over it.. but somehow i wil think about it.. damn!

anyway, i must always keep reminding myself not to build my happiness on someone and also, the key is to start living for myself.. i must constantly keep that in mind as i would not want history to repeat itself.. i want to be HAPPY!!

last but not the least, AMELIA, i know you have been waiting so long for this.. which is for me to put ur photo in my blog.. haha!! sorry i didnt crop ur pic.. coz later ur galfren scold me for cropping her face.. heh.. err.. so is this photo alright for you?? haha!! and and amelia made my day on wednesday!! weee!! she's so sweet la.. i didnt know she can be so sweet can.. haa.. i'm so touched!! haha.. thanks man!!

hmmm.. i wonder if bf can be as sweet to me like how amelia is anot.. hee.. *hint hint*

amelia with her "galfren" and smelly snoopy!

it's just not working..

2008-01-29T23:22:00.000+08:00

oh man!! sometimes i just wished i can "kill" or at least strangle t***!! just what does he want la?!! i dun even know! one time he told me i'll be playing this position and other time he told me i'll be playing that position..

actually, i dun mind being put to play in every position just as long i can get to play on court.. but sometimes, i just need to know my fixed position.. or at least a position which i am most likely to play.. right now, i dun feel i have any..

so when he put me to play into a certain position, i did.. i played my very best to play to his expectation of me in that position.. but somehow, i guess i did not satisfy his expectation of me as i kinda forget certain things which are need to be done for that position.. and wat do i get in return? scoldings! and more scoldings!

haiz.. i guess if this goes on, my passion in netball will just die off sooner or later just because of t***!! i need higher tolerance level now!!

Si Bei family

2008-01-19T14:11:00.000+08:00

oh man!! sociology test sucks man!! hopefully, i can at least get a C for it and wont fail the test.. if not, cute lovely boyfren will ignore me.. sigh..

anyways, went for src training.. before that watch bf's match at sports skool.. went there at the 3rd quarter so didnt reali get to see bf play.. but she told me she got one air ball in 1st quarter i tink.. haha!! after that, headed to city hall.. bought a small "cake" for my dear Amah.. and it's her birthday!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY AMAH!! and so, me and bf were late for training.. but there wasn't many pple attended training..

after training, went for dinner wif the rest.. and i was like the oldest among them la can!! i feel so... you know.. heh.. and and.. bf happily invite pple to join our family coz she said it's fun.. so now i have a lot of members in my family..

CONFIRMED

JingEr: Mr Si Bei Cool (father)

Soleha: Mrs Si Bei Hot (mother)

Carmen: Ms Si Bei Cute (auntie)

Annette: Mr Si Bei Happy (uncle)

Vanessa: Ms Si Bei Ah Lian (da jie)

Jocelyn: Mr Si Bei Man (da ge)

JiaXun: Ms Si Bei Tou Huay (unborn san mei)

GeokTing: Ms Si Bei Ah Huay (unborn xiao mei)

UNCONFIRMED

Amelia: Mr Si Bei Dao

Helen: Ms Si Bei Attitude

so yes.. aboved are my family members.. took it from carmen's blog.. i guess there will be more to come.. haha!! :)

erm.. wanted to send bf home so took train wif bf and our son.. and oh ya!! our son has got muscles!! cool man! "she" got my genes! that's why.. haha!! anyways, something happened at the interchange!! haha.. i didnt know that bf is so attractive la!! hmmm.. dunno if i shld say the details bout wat happen anot.. can i say, bf?? haa!! sorry bf i didnt help you.. if something like that happened again, i'll say that i'm ur galfren, okies?? heh.. and i dun like you la bf!! you chased me away when i wanted to take the same bus as you! i wun like you chase me away again like that the next time! hmph!!

last but not least, cheer up amelia!! if you need someone to talk to, i'll be here you know.. wanna see you teasing and disturbing me again when i see you the next time and oso want to hear ur long and contagious laughter too! okies?? :)

___________

2008-01-17T09:47:00.000+08:00

firstly, HAPPY BELATED BDAE T-REX!!! hope that you enjoyed the day out with us on tuesday.. so you are finally 18 years old liao.. can watch M-18 show areadi.. haha!! but seeing you, you can watch all types of movies even R-21.. wahahaha!!

and and.. thanks boyfren for lending me ur jacket throughout the movie though i know that you were like shivering beside me.. haha!! :P

oh yeah!! physical training was cancelled ytd due to poor attendance and mr tony was sick.. yipee!! so we just trained court work.. oh man!! i was told that i am going to play C!! i cant!! i hate playing C!! coz i got no stamina to last and i dunno where to run as a C as well.. i rather play GK than C sia.. sigh..

anyways, i tested boyfren if she was willing to fetch me home after training ytd.. i was just kidding.. and she actually believed and willing to fetch me home.. haha!! but being a nice person, i told her no need and that she sure bear to see her galfren to go home alone.. and she said that i'm mafan!! i so sad can!! sigh..

hmmm.. in 2 days time, it's going to be someone's bdae.. amah, if you are reading this, can you pls tell me who.. and tell me if i shld buy that person a present anot.. heh.

PS: i read ur blog, amah.. haa!!

exhausted!

2008-01-13T21:34:00.000+08:00

woohoo!! back from chalet!! 3 days 2 nights... it was fun but exhausted.. guess it was the first time i went for src chalet?? haa! anyways, it would be more fun if we were to do some activities there.. but nevertheless, it was total fun with laughter!! but den, the chalet came at the wrong time la!! my "auntie" came to visit me just before the chalet.. i dun like going to chalet with my "auntie" visiting me can.. still, i went fot the chalet.. and luckily i went.. haha!! coz i found quite a few things.. hehe.. i found out that:

boyfren:

1. she is afraid of cold!! all along i tot she is thick skinned and any amount of coldness cannot affect her in any ways.. but sadly no.. haha!! so i had to lend her my jacket.. haa.. (see how nice i am to you.. :P)

2. she snores for the first time!! (that's wat she said) haha! i guess that happened coz she slept beside me!! right?!! haha!

3. she is damn pro in daytona! i still haven challenge her in daytona yet.. haha!

limin:

1. she was childishly "angry" with me at one period of time few years ago as i keep minus-ing hwe life.. haa! quite shocked to find that out.. :P

2. she didnt wash her snoopy since kindergarden! oh my! you wouldn't want to smell her snoopy.. trust me.. haha!!

amelia:

1. she needs to wash her hair every morning, if not she will feel like melting when she goes out in the sun.. haha!!

2. she has a long lasting and contagious laughter which i dunno if she's calling me or laughing at something..

3. she thinks that i'm funny and she laughs!

cassandra:

1. she's the T-rek of the team.. haha!!

2. she snores the loudest!! oops! heh.

pui yen:

1. she's afraid of lizards and tell you.. she screamed at a very high pitch when she sees a lizard man.. haha!!

haaa!! so these are some of the things which i ahd found out during the chalet.. had lots of laughter!! laugh until i feel that i can have abs in few days time.. haha!! anyways, maybe if there are more chalets in time to come, i will be able to find a lot more things!! haha! overall, i've enjoyed the chalet!! :)

new year resolution made!

2008-01-10T10:18:00.000+08:00

after 10 days of 2008, i have finally made a new year resolution.. dunno if that can consider a resolution anot.. heh.. anyways, my resolution is to leave everything naturally, not hoping for anything.. coz in 2007, i have been hoping for lots of things to happen.. but wat happened was only disappointment and upsets.. thus, in 2008, i do not want to hope for anything and just let nature takes it course..

it's very tiring for someone to keep on hoping to something and also to do something just for it to happen.. and not just to do it, but to put it as ur top priority and forget about others.. i've realized now.. i wont hope for anything now.. if it happens, it happens.. if not, i wil just let it be.. i hope that can make my life happier this year..

and i've learned something very valuable today.. which is that frens should be honest with one another and we shld accept for who they are..

school sucks!

2008-01-08T11:09:00.000+08:00

oh man! i seriously hate school now!! and so here i am updating my blog in school! so so lazy to do my work!! or rather.. i have been feeling very lazy to do anything right now.. i dun even know why.. maybe it's just that i'm aimless without any resolutions this year..

to add on to that, i received a grade E for my Health & Wellness module test!! that is my first E out of my 2 years in RP... this made me more lazy to go school although there is only 4 weeks of school to go and den it's holidays.. i dread waking up early and attend lessons.. oh my!! have i become a lazy person now??

it's year 2008!!

2008-01-03T20:17:00.001+08:00

hey guys!! before anything, just wanna wish everyone a very Happy 2008!! hope it's not too late.. heh.. hmmm.. 2007 has passed by just like that.. and now comes 2008.. will there be any difference in my life in 2008?? what have i achieved in 2007?? have i achieved anything good?? hmmm.. let me tink.. are there more good things than bad things??

the bad:

1) got a warning letter from skool for poor attendance

2) have been slacking a lot in skool

3) got to know a shocking truth

4) didnt do well in skool's netball competition

5) not being able to have more confidence in myself

6) have been in the emo state most of the things

7) have hurt a lot of my friends unknowingly with my attitude

the good:

1) recently get to know my boyfren

2) abnormal r/s with adinda

3) having lots of close and good frens

(esp Amah, adinda, fling, baby, sweetheart, consultant, fad, zarra sis, jenny, bodyguard, minah, mak nenek, kak lydia)

hmmm.. well.. as you can see.. i have more bad things than good things.. wat i can conclude is that 2007 had been not a good year for me.. definitely.. new year new resolution.. but for me, i dunno wat's my new resolution.. i reali have no idea at all.. wat do i reali want to achieve in 2008??

soon soon..

2007-12-28T22:24:00.000+08:00

hey guys!! i promise my blog will soon be updated..

i promise..

lots of love, HAHA!

.......

2007-12-07T12:41:00.000+08:00

well.. i got nothing to blog about actually.. just that it has been an improved week for me.. and i seriously gotta do a reflection on myself.. to get back the life which i used to have last time.. yeah.. come on, HAHA!! :)

a pic of me with my darling sis!! love her!! do i look sad here??
when are we going to have an outing together, sis??

it's reflection time!!

2007-11-24T23:02:00.000+08:00

hmmm.. it has been quite an emo week for me i guess.. been in an emo state this week.. but well.. after talking to my consultant and 2 of my frens, i guess i know the reason behind my emo state.. like wat my consultant said, if you build ur happiness on someone, you wont be happy and thus, will suffer.. i tink that was the reason why i was in that state.. i guess it's time for me to do some reflection on myself...

and and lastly, it's time for me to start living for myself!! coz it's the key to make myself happy!! i am not gonna build my happiness on someone coz it brings bout sadness and lonelines in myself..

It's Worth It

2007-11-15T23:35:00.000+08:00

hmmm.. i guess it wasn't easy for me to do that.. but seeing how it bring smiles and happiness to the faces, i guess it's worth it.. behind the smiles and laughter on my face, it bring about sadness and loneliness deep inside.. :(

"You're Very Beautiful"

2007-11-08T23:12:00.000+08:00

it was such a comical day esp when i was on my way back home wif adinda.. what would you do when an old china man banged into you and stepped on ur leg and instead of saying sorry, he looked at you right into eyes.. then, after that, he said this to you, "You're very beautiful".. not only that, he then asked you for ur number and asked you a lot of stuffs like ur age, ur school, etc.. in addition, he took a snap of ur face using his phone, not once but 3 times!! after that, he keeps looking at you.. what would you do?? miss very beautiful, wat's ur take on this?? haha.. (you know who you are) heh.. =)

ok.. you guys shld have seen wat happened.. just by reading it wont bring out the comical side of it.. you shld have just seen it urself like i did! i cant stop laughing at it la!! it keeps playing in my head.. oh my!! haha!! maybe if you al wan, i can do an re-enactment of it.. but i need the lead actress for it.. i tink miss TAY LING HWEE LYDIA NATASYA BINTE SAMSUDIN is the most suitable for it.. haha!!

Happy 7th Month!

2007-11-01T23:20:00.000+08:00

i got nothing to update except for something..

it's my 7th month with my adinda!! time passed so quickly and didnt realise that it had been 7 months.. weee!! it has been a wonderful and memorable 7 months.. thanks for all the memories, adinda!! love ya loads!! :)

what am i??

2007-10-26T01:05:00.000+08:00

erm.. am i being too sensitive, immatured or childish for thinking about it?? it may not be a major stuff to think about, but i will still think deep about it even if it's just a minor stuff.. i'm thinking about it coz i care and seriously care bout it.. but i feel that if i think about it too much, it will seem that i'm too sensitive and not matured enuff to let it go.. it may even affect other pple as well..

so wat am i den??

sensitive??

immatured??

childish??

silly??

it's a better day

2007-10-22T23:33:00.000+08:00

the past few days had not been very good for me.. i very much wanted to confide the problems which had been bothering me wif someone or anyone.. but i decide to rather keep it within me and not bother anyone else.. thus, it has been quite a while since i smiled more than once in a day.. but today, i think i smiled more than once.. guess it all thanks to J, wany, naz, nab and not forgetting my ADINDA...

as usual, J, wany, naz and nab have never failed to make me laughed or smiled in a day.. but today.. it's rather different coz my adinda was there too.. it has been quite a while since i spend time wif her coz the situation is different now.. kinda miss spending time wif her.. so, we spent our time before watching the soccer gals' match.. and i reali had so much fun.. so thanks sdinda for spending ur time wif me just now.. appreciates!!

PS: adinda, u dun have to tink so much.. okies?? i wil understand whatever it is.. and you know that i wil always be there for you anytime and anywhere.. :)

hari raya photos!!

2007-10-16T12:36:00.000+08:00

I can finally upload my hari raya photos!! hope you guys like it!! =)

my bro trying to jump as high as he can!! heh.

my sis trying to strike a post with the flowers there..
me and bro in the bus singing and posing.. hehe..

another shot of us... :)

the 3 cousins..

isn't he's cute??!!

my papa and mama!! love them!!

me, my sis and bro!!

my beloved family!!

confusion is back!!

2007-10-15T20:15:00.000+08:00

oh man... just when i tot that i'm done wif the confusion, it's here again.. argh!! or maybe i'm just thinking too much or thinking about the unnecessary stuff?? or is it that i worry too much?? i dunno!! aiyer!!

saying is definitely very easy but doing it is very difficult!!

oh well.. i wil stop talking about this for a while.. just wanna wish all the Musilms pple SELAMAT HARI RAYA!! wee! green packets!! hehe.. i shall upload the photos here soon after i got it from my cousin.. alright, peeps??

which is better??

2007-10-10T00:14:00.000+08:00

is it better to be with someone who love or someone who loves you?? well... i seriously dunno.. what if you dun hv any special feelings for the someone who has been waiting for you?? will you give him a chance?? or should just wait until you find someone who you love and love you too?? and what if you had tried finding for a very long time but still cannot find?? what will you do?? and what am i supposed to do??

getting MISLEADING!!

2007-10-04T01:06:00.000+08:00

argh!! i think a LOT of people is getting the wrong perception of me!! i think it's getting misleading...

what should i do???

*thinking hard*

6th Months Anniversary!!

2007-10-02T01:26:00.000+08:00

alright.. i'm just going to blog about the 6th months anniversary between me and galfren.. cant believe it had areado reached 6 months... how time flies.. haha.. so.. i bought cookie monster for galfren.. coz i dunno wat to buy but i know she likes cookie monster.. so yup, i just bought it for her... hope you like it, galfren!! :)

hmmm... something unexpected but sweet and touching happened on my way home after training.. as usual, me, wany, J, naz and galfren were walking to interchange... at one point of time, i was listening to music wif naz, den suddenly naz, wany and J began to walk very fast and leave me and galfren behind.. at first i had no idea why.. but suddenly she said that she got something for me.. guess wat?? she sang a song for me!! the song is called "kekasih gelapku" by ungu.. tt song is soooo nice can!! but galfren made it sound nicer!! weee!! i was reali very touched and dunno wat to say when she began to sing.. i nearly cried but i covered it up by laughing.. it wasn't meant at you, galfren.. dun worry..

this is the first time when someone sing a song to me.. it reali touches and warms my heart.. reali.. thank you so so much galfren!! i love you loads & loads!! *muacks*

touched...

2007-09-25T01:17:00.000+08:00

something which touched me today..

the something was actually when i saw the tigger which i gave galfren during the KL trip was being hanged at her bag.. was happy and touched to see her hang the tigger there.. hehe.. these simple stuffs which can touch me and make me smile.. :) thanks galfren.. anyway, take care of ur health and oso ur hand alright?? recover fast and join us for training on wed!!

kinda relieved

2007-09-23T16:54:00.000+08:00

nothing to blog except that this time....

i feel kinda RELIEVED...

but i hope that nothing will change and it will remain the same or even better..

........

2007-09-21T00:06:00.001+08:00

I got nothing to blog today.. all i can say is that.........

I'M CONFUSED!!

haiz... it has been on my mind for quite some time...

simple words which can make me smile...

2007-09-20T00:20:00.000+08:00

was shocked when i went to school and saw my secondary school coach there!! she was wif her fren.. but why was she there in the first place?? of all places, y muz she come to RP?? whatever it is, wanted to play a prank on her and msg her.. but she saw me in the end.. argh!! tt spoiled the whole thing.. haiz.. so went over and chatted wif her and her fren as well.. her fren is a facilitator in RP and my ex coach came to RP juz to meet up wif her fren.. how nice was that uh.. anyway, she looked slimmer compared to the last time i saw her.. hehe.. was nice to see her after a long time though it was kind of unexpected though.. well, muz expect the unexpected.. hee..

during my chat wif her and her fren, she said something which reali made my day.. i was telling her that i am now playing GK instead of shooter.. den she asked me if my coach is blind anot so as to put me as a GK.. den she told her fren that i am the sharpest shooter ever... i was so thrilled when she said that.. her words simply made my day... thank u ms seah!! hope tt we'll be able to meet and catch up more.. :)

after that, chatted wif wany, abby, nab and galfren.. we not reali chatted la but gossip instead.. hahaha!! we gossip bout BMW and big bird... hehe.. talking bout them reali can make us laugh la.. esp when trying to act like big bird and trying to speak our language like BMW.. haha.. it was so hilarious can.. den it was time to go for training..

something reali comical happened during training.. it was when nyonya fell down.. it wasn't her fall that made it comical.. but it was an inside thing which made me, vann and galfren laugh our heart out la.. haha!! sorry cant describe it here.. hehe..

alright, i shall end here.. take care peeps!!

PS: J moron, u look nice in skirt.. seriously.. u dun hv to feel shy when u are wearing it.. alright??

i got my lappie back!!

2007-09-16T00:18:00.000+08:00

oh yeah!! finally i got my lappie back!!! haha.. can go online liao.. but but.. the sad thing is that all my stuffs are GONE!! my pictures!! my MSN history!! my musics!! all GONE!! argh!! now muz start everything al over again...

anyway, did nothing much today.. went to work in the afternoon.. after that meet galfren and wany to break fast at lau pa sat.. well.. the food there was not reali nice la.. but.. still edible.. from the breaking fast section, i've found a new member for my MAKCIK club.. haha.. guess who is it.. it's our dear WANY!! she's the latest member in my club.. she shall be the manager.. right makcik wany?? haha.. welcome to my club..

after that, went home wif galfren.. in the mrt where we meet a grp of indonesian chinese guys who talk in indonesia.. both of us were like eavedropping (correct spelling? haha..) in their conversation la.. but who cares.. hehe.. so we walked home from chinese garden which galfren claimed tt it took onli 25 minutes to reach her hse.. coz i tink it took lesser than tt la.. haha.. along the way, i badly wanna pee can!! galfren didnt tell me beforehand tt we gonna walk home la.. if she did, i wun be in tt weird situation la.. haa!! galfren, next time give me a warning first, okie?? hehe.. anway, we shall walk home from boon lay next time, alright?? or clementi?? i give u a choice.. hee..

i'm back!!

2007-09-12T13:50:00.000+08:00

u muz be wondering y there are no updates in this blog at all.. firstly, my laptop is down.. being sent for repaired.. till now, haven get it back yet.. so sian.. cant go online and check my mails.. haiz.. secondly, i juz came back from my KL trip with my fellow netballers.. so here i am in my workplace..going to keep you all updated...

well.. the KL trip was really very fun though the journey was like 6 hours to reach KL and another 6 hours to reach Penang.. i seriously had a wonderful time wif my fellow teammates and not forgetting with galfren as well.. wee!! i hope that our bond has become stronger thru this trip and wil be able to see us thru the IVP which is coming in Oct..

i did some reflection upon reaching home.. i've realised that my mental strength is not very strong and it reali made me worried as it affects the way i play on court.. i reali need to improve my mental strength... but how do i do it?? reali hope to have a greater mental strength before the IVP begins..

anyway naz, if you are reading this, i would like to apologise for wat i said during our last game in the carnival in Penang.. i know it was wrong of me to say that.. but.. it just came out from my mouth.. or maybe it was because i had weak mental strength which cant help me to overcome it.. i am so sorry bout tt..

a bad & frustrating day!!

2007-08-29T23:35:00.000+08:00

today was a bad and frustrating day for me!!

firstly, i was supposed to report for work at 9am.. and guess wat.. i overslept and woke up at 9am!! argh!! when i woke up, i was so shocked la.. so i quickly called my fren telling her tt i wil be late.. den i go bath and get dressed quickly.. after all that had been done, it was 9.25am.. so in the end, i reached office at 10.10am.. luckily no one asked me why i was late.. phew!!

secondly, there was skool training today.. normally i would leave work ard 6.20pm so i would reach skool ard 7.30pm.. but today, i left work at ard 6.40pm..coz i was doing something.. hehe.. naz shld know wat i am busy wif.. hee.. when i reached woodlands, i took cab to go to RP coz i very lazy to walk to the sports complex.. wa.. i tink the taxi driver purposely drove the long way can... coz i tink he wanna earn for money and cheat my money oso la!! idiot!!

thirdly, when i went home in the mrt sitting down alone.. there was a bug on my shirt la!! i didnt realised it at first.. but when i suddenly turned to the side, i saw this bug on my shirt.. i got a bit freaked out and i pushed it away... and u know wat.. it got onto the side pants of the person sitting beside me.. i felt bad tt it landed onto her pants.. so i wanted to warn her about the bug but i was shy to tell her tt.. so it took me a while before i finally tell her about the bug.. and was suprised tt she looked calm and just pushed the bug away.. unlike me... haha...

fourth, when i reached home, i saw a cockroach on my doorstep.. it's not tt i'm scared of cockroach or wat... but i just had enuff of the bug and now a cockroach?!! so i juz scare the cockroach away.. but when i see the cockroach, it reminded me of my "galfren" who nv sleep just coz of a cockroach.. hahaha!!!

haiz.. hope tt tmr will be a better day for me...

table tennis day!!

2007-08-28T21:55:00.000+08:00

i shall not talk about how was my work today.. coz there wasn't much work to do.. i know i shld be happy when there's no work to do.. but i dun like it when my so called "boss" will nag at me for slacking ard in the office and doin nothing.. but there's reali nothing to do la!! so wat can i do?? maybe there is but it's not tt impt so can like do it some other time wat.. i rather have work to do lor.. sian..

took half day off from work today as there was a briefing for the KL trip in skool.. but meet naz and J first before going to skool.. they had eaten their lunch earlier so when i came, they accompany to eat.. seriously, i cannot go alone with naz and J ard.. coz since they are each other's sayang, it seems tt i'm like the lightbulb there.. feel so awkward la.. muz ask someone else ard when there are both of them.. haha!! but they are both a fun pple to hang out with.. right naz and J?? hehe..

during the briefing, faz told us tt another advisor will be following us to the trip as well.. i was hoping it would be *ahem* but i know it wont happen.. so sad can... haiz.. anyway, the briefing was short so after that, me, nab, J, naz, "galfren", wany and nigel went to up to the court.. den nab decided to take her bf's table tennis stuffs and we started playing it.. we took turns to play.. at first naz was the defending champion but when tt asshole nigel started to play, he won all the way..

whenever it was my turn to play, nab, J, naz, "gafren" and nigel laughed at me la.. they keep saying me look like auntie la.. in fact, i tink a lot of pple commented tt i look and sound like auntie.. even my "galfren" said tt la.. idiot!! shld hv tortured her more.. hmph!! it seems tt i cant keep the ball down whenever i hit it.. it always will go up high and went out.. nab who is my table tennis "coach" kept telling me to keep the ball low.. but i didnt manage to do it.. argh!! so, i lost to nigel most of the times!! but but.. when it was the last game of the day, guess wat... i finally defeated tt asshole nigel!! haha!! i won, mad-damn!!! *bluek*

so after tt, off we go!! walked to the station wif the group.. as usual, we laughed our way to the station esp when tt nigel kept shouting "POOKIE" to call us.. and he called me black "POOKIE".. idiot la!! and all of them laughed including my "galfen".. tot tt she would support me.. but sadly no.. nvm.. i had my revenge by pressing in her neck.. HAHAHA!!! shall do it more to torture her since she likes to bully me hor.. u watch out!! haa!!

hmmm... i guess today had been a very fun day for me esp the table tennis game.. shall practice more to win nigel!!

2007-08-27T23:37:00.000+08:00

got to wake up at 7.30am today though it is holidays right now.. holidays can mean a good and a bad thing for me.. the good thing is that i dun have to wake up at 6.30am everyday and go to school.. but the bad thing is that i have to work!! it's not tt i dun like to work.. but i hate waking up early!! i wanna stay longer in bed!! i need my beauty sleep, ok!! hehe... but well.. my motivation of going to work is that i can earn $$$$... hee.. tt is wat keep me going..

so went to work today.. well nothing in particular happened in the office actually.. but it was quite hectic as got a lot of projects which the designers had to meet the deadlines.. when tt happened, they will come running to the part timers, like me... so pple like me have to rush their projects like mad.. if not, will get scolding from them...

after that, off i go to school for training!!! training was ok la actually... pretty much the same thing every training... getting very sian areadi.. tony asked something to me when i was defending him as a Gk and he as a Gs.. he asked if the ngee ann defender come RP and join netball, i want to play WA anot.. so i said tt i wil play any position which he put me in as la.. but in my heart, i still wanna play my fav position which is GA.. but well i know tt wil not happen again as long as i'm in RP.. so i have learned to accept my fate since i'm playing for RP..

anyway, before i came for training, i had set my mind not to talk to my "galfren" coz she made me angry ytd.. but den the way she asked me not to get angry and the way she apologise to me made me feel very bad for not talking to her.. i managed not to talk to her for the whole training till it ends.. but when training ends, i feel so bad that i made peace with her like finally.. haha!! but but.. when we were in the bus going home, she bully me la!! idiot!! she always bully me.. or am i easily get bullied by others?? i tink i am.. but anyway, shld not have made peace wif her if i know tt she gonna bully me along the way la. but i tink she has been doing tt all the while.. haha!!

alright... tt's all folks!! bye!!

finally got a blog!!

2007-08-26T16:19:00.000+08:00

woohoo!! i got a blog of my own like finally!! haha... i know it's a bit too late or rather slow for me to have a blog like only now.. but but.. it's better be late than never right??? hehe.. actually, i wanted to have a blog long long ago la.. but i'm a noob in doing this kind of stuff la... so i gave up in the end..

i have been reading a lot of my frens blogs nowadays... been reading a lot bout their stuffs in the blog.. so the thought of having a blog came to my mind again... so i asked J to help me to create a an account and do other necessary stuffs which are required to create a blog.. encountered with a problem wif the settings to change my blogskin.. keep trying to change it but to no avail.. so in the end, i asked nab for help.. it's a good thing that i asked her because..... she managed to help me change the blogskin which i want!! haha!! i was so happy when she told me she managed to change it.. thank u so much nab!! and J.. i wont forget your help as well in helping me in creating my own blog.. thanks J!!

hmmm... i guess that's all for the starting.. hehe.. i shall try to update more in future provided that i am not busy wif my netball and other stuffs!!

if there's a soulmate for everyone

STOP!

Staying strong and holding on

Stupid asshole freak

soulmate for you.

"burst-ing" time!

FYP is over!

hilarious shit!

feeling happy!

FYP!

"pregnant me" :P

what hurts the most

YOU

it's alive again! :D

bangkok here i come! :D

fun time!

Happy Birthday Tut Tut

random stuffs

no idea!

home alone

mood low low low

GLITZ Night!

loves.

sorry

pictures time! woohoo! :)

it's creepy

Happy Mother's Day!!

tiring day

normal day!

crazy day!

fun Monday!

touch rugby!

finally training!

pictures!

possible reasons :P

kexian's insanity!

stalker!

sick sick me..

distorted body!

busy busy

meishi's insanity!

careless, careless!!

when you look me in the eye

getting annoyed!

itchy itchy!

fun day!

moodless

i'm such a failure

"Gabriel"!!

check up

i'm still sad.. :(

it's soccer time!

Makeover Time!

Happy Valentine's Day!!

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so what now?

it's just not working..

Si Bei family

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exhausted!

new year resolution made!

school sucks!

it's year 2008!!

soon soon..

.......

it's reflection time!!

It's Worth It

"You're Very Beautiful"

Happy 7th Month!

what am i??

it's a better day

hari raya photos!!

confusion is back!!

which is better??

getting MISLEADING!!

6th Months Anniversary!!

touched...

kinda relieved

........

simple words which can make me smile...

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